Friday, 09 September 2011

  • seasonal weather

    My on my own attidue leaves me alone.
    The roots of the soild dark and emersed in the fresh rain.
    Somewhere along my persoanlity of being strong.
    The truck of the tree rising to the sky.
    Streams me weak with everythign I burden.
    Drifting bending with the winds whispers.
    Missing the gentle smiles that seemed so innocent back in the day.
    Like a soft leaf falling off a tree.
    Now I wear tears invisible on my eyes leads.
    Clouds leave the sky in the distance water drips off leafs.
    Wonder how much I can do, how long I can last.
    Crisp cold air is slowly warmed by the sun kisses.
    Thinking where did I go wrong?
    Knowing tis just the weather of seasons and changes.
    A kid looks upa nd the tree and climibs it, just for fun.
    Every way I stare I keep trying the chances.
    Sitting in the tree looking to the distance.

    Hoping it'll pay off in the end.

Saturday, 19 March 2011

  • leaving with roots.

    But I dont think Im being that screwed up for not talking to her for awhile. I know it hurts both ways. But being in a house where Im the black sheep and treated disrespectfully is no place to live and make the most of life. In ways Im glad I got pushed to move out, but under the circumstances and the fighting and how much it hurt me to be abandoned. Where my sister gets help, but I dont. She couldn't compromise. She says There is no winning with me....
    it was never about winning with me, it was about a chance to get back to school, be able to catch up. And my own family wouldnt help but my friends would? I kinda think thats a f"d up way of famil thinking.
    I know our family has had issues over the years and I wonder why.... I know everything has its ties. But I have a great mexican friend and her family is so close and they are there for each other ... I could go on. But I feel like the biggest thing is there are family values and compassion missing from day to day lives.
    It it burns a hole in my heart, where my friends become more family then some of my family has. Its been a rough year with my real dad dying, not talking to my mother and being away from the nest. and its fine Im strong...

    But it doesnt mean i dont have a heart.

Tuesday, 29 June 2010

  • Pantamime

    You have the longing of a broken heart.
    And admire with the purest love.
    Behind a facade, your love is unseen.

    But your far to scared to sing.
    Untrue your used to.
    You'll never know if its even real.

    Locking your heart away.
    You have the longing of a broken heart.

    Threw away the key long ago.
    Build the igloo in the highlands.
    Hoping careless wanders won't trespass.

    So careful, because you care beyond what they can perceive.
    Its such a misconception, so misunderstood.

    You have the longing of a broken heart.
    Lost in never-land, calling me a child I'm far to wild.
    But I only fly in my head, while I'm grounded.
    Passive ideas and theories.

    I used to want so much to float stellar.
    Watching earth set and the stars rise... in your eye's.
    But;
    Your too scared to sing.
    You threw away the key away long ago.
    Away from the sirens in the highlands.
    Ice cold igloo imagination.
    Your far to scared so you admire.
    You have the longing of a broken heart.

    Untouched innocent observer lover.
    Genuine in idea.
    In action... you'll make all the same mistakes any other would.
    When you love...You care to hurt.

    Be careful you might love one day.
    And fall from higher ground.
    Your igloo will be your lake.
    Your moon will shine and the stars will rise.
    And there will be no keyhole left after your igloo melts.

    Your a lover.
    Don't forget your good intentions along the way.
    Love, Love.
  • Behind to lead blind (Tears for fears)

    I've lost my admiration that much.
    And Im far from a wishing state.

    Its it only different because I'm in my own cage,
    Breaking free to be wild.

    Breaking my own heart with my hesitation,
    it always leads you to choose last.

    Oh procrastination.
    You damn me into a placid lake of second guessing.

    Maybe its from my own lack of confidence to act how I feel,
    for fearing consequence.

    Oh tears for fears I know this to be true.
    A constant lesson to remind my mind.

    Lets make some action and bite this while it's fresh.
    Im so thoughful my intentions.

    Can't that just be enough, to love?
    To be how I feel, to be me?

    Its just me; these Tears I hold back for all the fears.

    Damn Consequences, and I can't ignore them in a responsible state of mind.
    Its fine...reasonable enough... I'll give in right? I'm only human.
    Its human to error even to your own surprise.
    I hope Im right.

Thursday, 29 April 2010

  • Bird chirper in the mist morning new.

    A voice of heaven in my ears.
    Eye's dark of the bluest.
    Hair brown and pure like her soul.
    Thinks down to earth, but leaves to the stars when we smile.

    Like a Epiphany when we connect.
    And crash into each other like waves in the ocean.
    Something so Rhythmical about this moment.
    It's Stellar and only a photograph now.

    Free to the eye's thought of conviction and protection.
    Protect Moi.

    Never want to love again.
    It'll happen anyhow.
    I know this, I was born a lover.
    Never let me down again.
    Protect Moi.