But I dont think Im being that screwed up for not talking to her for awhile. I know it hurts both ways. But being in a house where Im the black sheep and treated disrespectfully is no place to live and make the most of life. In ways Im glad I got pushed to move out, but under the circumstances and the fighting and how much it hurt me to be abandoned. Where my sister gets help, but I dont. She couldn't compromise. She says There is no winning with me....
it was never about winning with me, it was about a chance to get back to school, be able to catch up. And my own family wouldnt help but my friends would? I kinda think thats a f"d up way of famil thinking.
I know our family has had issues over the years and I wonder why.... I know everything has its ties. But I have a great mexican friend and her family is so close and they are there for each other ... I could go on. But I feel like the biggest thing is there are family values and compassion missing from day to day lives.
It it burns a hole in my heart, where my friends become more family then some of my family has. Its been a rough year with my real dad dying, not talking to my mother and being away from the nest. and its fine Im strong...
But it doesnt mean i dont have a heart.